A Time for Change

progress pics!!!

2011-06-09T09:36:00.000-07:00

I have almost lost 50 lbs! wow... I have to admit, I am pretty proud of myself. It is something I honestly thought was never possible. I have never felt this confident in my life, and it just feels so good. Weight and self confidence has always held me back... but I can do hard things and overcome something that I always thought I would just have to live with. I still have 15 more to lose to reach my goal... but I just had to share!

I have almost cut my beginning dress size in half, I have lost 17 inches collectively (mostly my hips and waist), I have almost lost 50 lbs and I have gained a lot of confidence!

Do you like how again I wore this shirt?! I just had to share the difference! haha

Before:

Today:

Oh yeah... I also need to post about my 5k. It was so fun and I pushed myself and I ran the most I ever have... I will tell you about it later!

Still Changing!

2011-05-16T14:21:00.000-07:00

Hello blogging world! I am now down a little over 40 lbs! I have 20 something more to go and I am super excited about it. I am going to be honest, this last little while has been hard! I don't know what it is, but I lost a significant chunk, felt like I had made it and kinda got too comfortable... I had one week of a small gain, the next week I lost twice what I gained, but since then I had stayed the very same for weeks. I wish I could say that I didn't know why. Pizza and icecream tasted sooo good. A little pizza here and there is fine, in fact needed to keep me sane! haha... The problem really wasn't even the pizza and the icecream... I just stopped tracking my points and food. But this week I am back. I KNOW that when I track, I lose weight, when I don't I stay the same. Seems like a no brainer right?! So here I am. I would REALLY love to lose 10 more lbs by the end of june for our trip to Lake Powell... I think I can do that. I just have GOT to stay focused!

oh yeah... the WW 5k is this weekend. I am pretty excited. I have always HATED I mean HATED running. Like I dreaded Wednesdays (fun run day) in PE, like I would have major anxiety over those days, like "mom, please check me out of school..." Well, my friends, I am proud to say that I have learned to LOVE running. ME?! who me?! yes, and that doesn't mean I am any good. But I seriously have a smile on my face while running. We have been doing about 4-5 miles every day (not running the whole thing, are you kidding? but I am working up to it). The husband loves it (though I know he would love to run longer and faster) and the babe loves it too. It is great. The "walk it Challenge 5k" will be fun... and I will be walking it, and running in there when I can too. I hope to really be able to run a full 5k soon...and then a 10k and then a half marathon and then, woah I am really getting ahead of myself. The 5k alone is a HUGE feat for me, heck just running one mile is. But I am doing it!

oh hey...remember me?!

2011-03-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

I'll be honest. I am not loving this blog. I feel dumb...And I know I have said it before, but this is really hard to come on here and expose everything to the public. I am sure you are all thinking (all 2 of you... hi mom) what a quitter I am... But the truth is, I have still been doing it, I just HATE writing about it! Ok? Don't give up on me.

I had a baby in June. I wasn't quite in the mood to get things going for a while.

I started the new weight watchers points plus plan in January. I just decided I was going to do this thing. (and I wasn't too excited about starting up again)... Well, I absolutely LOVE the new plan. I am sticking with it for the rest of my life. It is easy and I feel great!!! I started the first week in January and I have lost 30 lbs!

I am fitting into some jeans from high school again! Seriously...it is a blast! I have thirty more to go to be at the top of my healthy range, and then from there, I will try to lose some more. I am about 15 lbs away from my wedding weight!

Weight loss is a weird thing for me. Why is it so embarrassing to admit that I am on a diet? Is it because I don't want people to watch every little thing I put in my mouth? Or judge me if I had a bad week... yeah. That's why.

I might not post too often... just know that I am doing it.

Let me explain...

2010-01-26T15:48:00.000-08:00

So, I know that all of the readers of this blog already know, but I had to explain why I have been a little MIA... I am pregnant, and can't really diet at the moment. But let me assure you, I will be back in July working all of it off.

So far I have actually lost weight in my pregnancy (pretty typical this far along I know) but I plan on gaining the minimum needed. I know everyone will say that isn't the easiest thing, but I will try! ;)

I am so excited for all of the experiences to come, and I can't wait to add to our little family. I feel so lucky!

So, Farewell for now my little blog. I will be back for sure!

Did I enjoy it? yes.

2009-08-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

It has been a while, but for good reason. Firstly, I spent a week at Island Park Idaho which involved a beautiful lake, wave runners, mansion cabin, family, four wheelers, card games, yellowstone, and of course food.

Next, I spent a fabulous week in Wisconsin which involved Evan's friends, Six flags, shopping, cheese, root beer pubs, my new family that I love more and more all the time, Chicago, aquariums, fireflies, oconomowoc lakes, friday fish fry, and of course frozen custard.

So, I was on vacation. And food is part of that. Did I enjoy it? yes. A lot?? yes...

Now I am back and am not beating myself up. Sure, it was 2 weeks of falling off track, but I was still thinking about it, and being more careful than I usually would have been. Now, I just have to get back on track. Good news: Lost 2 lbs. Among all of this, I find that pretty awesome.

More good news. I got a new job. I started this week. I love it. I have NEVER had a job that I enjoy. Life is good and I feel like I am making a difference.

Thanks for your words of encouragement... They are always greatly appreciated and help me more than you know!

Can you tell the difference?

2009-07-23T13:39:00.000-07:00

This is silly,
but I took a new picture today and can already compare it to the one that
I took two and a half weeks ago.

What do you think? And please...Don't mind my messy house!

Before:

Today! about 2 weeks later:

PS... I may be absent for the next small while. I am going to Yellowstone next week and then Wisconsin the following week. Wish me luck! A vacation could make things a little more difficult!

I'm still here!

2009-07-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

Don't worry! I am still here! You didn't think I would give up that easy did you? Well, I just have to say that I had a busier week and didn't have a whole lot of time to blog, but here's what is happening:

I weigh in (to myself) every Monday morning. I have lost a little over 10 lbs which I think is totally awesome. I don't know if it is just body shock or water weight, but I am hoping to keep going from there.

I finished my no carbs for two weeks goal! I must say that the only time I broke the rule was with the sacrament on Sunday. Awesome. I love my carbs, but I haven't really missed them! I haven't had chocolate in over 2 weeks which is crazy for me! I seriously used to need my chocolate fix every single day. I think I was a tad addicted. Now I don't ever have cravings.
The end of the 2 weeks was getting a little hard. "If I have to have eggs for breakfast one more day I..." yeah. This morning I had a bowl of Bran flakes... and almost died it was so good!

I am excited to be able to make more normal meals now, just with adjustments. Like making my whole wheat pizza dough, whole wheat tortillas, etc. Let me just say I LOVE this thing that I got for Christmas from my parents this year:

It's a wheat grinder and it's incredible!

ok, So one thing I might need a little help about. Exercise. I have always hated it because I am not good at it. I am a closet exerciser... I hate going outside because I am so embarrased about the way I look. Evan got me an elyptical trainer at Easter... and I have liked that a lot, but it gets a little boring day after day. Luckily this week I got a hold of seasons 1-6 of the biggest loser to watch while I work out! That is the most motivating! but any new ideas are welcome! :)

Ok another thing, Our neighbors invited us over for games and dessert tonight. I never know how to say, "no thanks..." or do I just have a little bit? Or do I tell them that I am trying to lose weight? It's just kind of a weird thing to bring up you know? Especially after she made a nice dessert... Seems silly, but I have to think all of these things through.

Last and not least. Here is a goal outfit (or something like it).

I have always had too much junk in the trunk to wear this... But I have always wanted to wear a pencil skirt. I see it in the near future...

Alright... I am not giving up. I can do this. I am doing great. It's going to take time...

update for week 1...

2009-07-09T23:22:00.001-07:00

This has been a great week so far! I love when I feel so motivated...

I have to say thanks to the comments from my first post. I was kind of scared of doing this blog because everyone would know that I was trying to lose weight and if it didn't happen, everyone would know that I had failed. I guess that is what I liked about doing this blog too... I don't want to fail especially because everyone knows about it!

These past few days have been great! I have stayed strict to my "no carbs for 2 weeks policy" and sure enough, I am feeling good! I am just going to ramble on and on on this blog so here is your disclaimer.

Things that I have LOVED the past few days:

Tillapia and Salmon... Mmmm! It is a little more expensive, but I have found that it is worth it!

Homemade Lettuce Wraps (without my sugary sauce though! soy sauce and a little yoshidas)

Low Fat Plain yogurt...who knew?

String Cheese

Omelet for Breakfast

Cucumbers...Pickles...cabbage...brocolli...etc.

Working on my T Shirt Quilt (finally) has kept me busy!

Looking at old pictures of myself (and taking new for progress) has kept me motivated!

Going past the bakery at Costco was not easy... But I survived!

Cleaning out our nasty fridge made me never want to eat again!

"How long has that been back there? I can't even tell you what it is..."

Yes... Gross!

Being pleasantly surprised by dropping numbers on the scale... yet I won't record it until my week mark because it fluctuates so much in a day. "Oh hey! I just went to the bathroom and lost a pound!!" Umm... no.

Other times I have done diets and never really stuck with them... I cheated. A small bite here... a little chocolate there... But, I haven't cheated yet. I know it is only day 4... but I am still ready to be no cheater!

Um... yay! I am rambling. It is helping me! You probably shouldn't read this blog for any major insights on life or anything. I don't have great things to say... But I am working through this, and so far...it's working!

A New Life

2009-07-07T11:24:00.000-07:00

I have never been one to really come out with my feelings. I don't like to be exposed. I don't like to seem dramatic. I am not one to write how terrible things are so that people will pity me. But, I realized that I need to get some support. This blog will be my support... I don't care if anyone ever reads it... But me writing it? yeah, that's therapeutic.

I am coming out with a flaw. For those of you who know me well, this is no surprise. But I smile and pretend that everything is fine. Well. It's not fine and I am here to change.

My whole life I have had issues with body image. I matured faster than other girls in elementary school, and I always felt like I was fat. Because I thought it for so many years, I started to become what I thought I was. If I had only seen myself as beautiful and normal back then, I may not have started this vicious cycle.

I am just ready to be happy about who I am, and in order to be happy I need to live a healthy life. I am never going to be a size 0 and I know that now...

This blog is here for me to be accountable to. I may have good days, I may have bad... hopefully less bad because I am exposing so much...

I have always said, I can't do this, I will never be able to wear that, My body shape doesn't compliment that. Well, I am going to do it. Lately it is affecting me differently. I have had social issues because of it. I won't go to the store. I won't get a job. It is ruining my life and I have to change it.

It is interesting that when I finally realized that I was ready to change, I suddenly felt so powerful. I hope it stays with me... Most importantly, I know that my Father in Heaven is going to help me on this journey.

So... My first goal is to lose 30 pounds. And then 20 and then 20 more, but right now I am focusing on my first 30.

Here is the plan:
South Beach diet (I always loathed the idea of this)

What it is:
Phase 1: 2 weeks without carbs (I can do anything for two weeks right?!) I eat lean meats, low fat cheese, beans, lots of vegetables...
Phase 2: Introduce fruits and whole wheat pasta, brown rice and wheat bread.
Phase 3: Maintain it.

The thing I liked about this diet is that the first two weeks supposedly bring great results. And a good start is what I need for motivation.

Okay? ready...set... I can do this! Yesterday I did great! I would way rather live a happy and empowered life than eat a candy bar! What was I thinking?! OKAY! GO!